8m isn’t enough
I cannot, for the life of me, find the other section of blanket. It is now so elevated in my mind that it is about half a blanket, so there is only a ‘bit to do.’ Which is wrong. I’m sure its barely big enough for a cat to sit on. I’m about convinced it is up north in the box..with the other grey mandarin size balls. No matter. I can work on what I have and join the other section when its found.
The other day I started a square with the tapestry yarn with a vague thought to making a wool one. I still could do that. (I love the weight of the Harmony blanket, of which I dont have ‘finished’ picture. It currently has 12 blocks of 4 so its not huge, but I’m out of enough lengths of tapestry yarn to make more at the moment). I grabbed an 8m skein of tapestry yarn and started a square, but there isn’t enough meterage in a skein to make a full one. If memory serves, the pattern page in Ravelry says 13m.
I’ve been having trouble joining the squares as I go. I had thought to join at the corner spike, but that doesn’t work well since all 4 corners would be joined. I’ve changed it to ch1, sl st to next block, the treble, sl st to the next block (if there is one) and continue. I need to do some more to make sure that works nicely. It should. And if it doesn’t, who gives a toss?
Mine, especially the girls, have been turned outside of a night because at least one (possibly two) likes to crap inside, in the corners. They have been indoor/outdoor (free ranging?) cats since forever. 362 days a year there has been one window open to allow them to get outside to do their business (at least two in summer). Well, one hasn’t been going out. I don’t think its illness, because she seems to do it ‘deliberately’ when I am not in the room. Yesterday Snot, the one I believe is the doer, was on my lap and growled when one of the others came to the heater. I turfed her off my lap – I wont put up with that sort of behaviour. Made a note to myself that I thought that would now end up with a crap on the floor in retaliation. I checked the office before tea. Nothing. Yay! Had tea while the other cats were hogging the heater, and Snot was ‘on the bed.’ After tea I go to the loo and ..there was a huge sloppy crap on the floor. I know it wasn’t the heater hoggers, cos the warm zaps their bones. This left Snot who had been told off.
Cleaning up slop is tricky. You can’t pick it up. You can’t even wipe/mop it up. After a few seconds of trying to work out how to deal with it, I poured cat litter on it and scooped it up after it soaked a bit.
People will say cats don’t soil out of the litter box out of spite, but, there is no other way to explain it. I go away. The cat/s crap indoors AFTER I am back. Tell one off. There’s a fresh poo. I’m in the office right now, with the front and back doors open. I expect to find a fresh crap in the lounge room when I go back in there. (Whew, there isn’t).
Because they are turfed out, there is yowling at the windows during the night. Snot is the best one for being at the bedroom window. So, broken sleep there.
I’m about at the end of my tether with this.
Speaking of tethers…The new car is stressful. I’m still waiting for Himself to come into town for work so we can go and collect the new car. The owner accepted our offer and has taken if off the market. I’m paranoid that is will be sold from under us. I have the cheque for the accepted offer ready for it and that is a huge chunk of savings. Four years worth to be exact. I don’t dare leave the house with my bag in case the bag/purse gets lost/stolen.
Thinking about everything is making for very bad sleep.
Himself was due to come into town ‘later in the week’ for work. He thought Wednesday or Thursday. Its 10:40am Thursday now and I am expecting that he will be here after work tomorrow. This will make it a full week after the owner said he accepted the offer.
On top of the thinking, the neighbour is being a wanker again playing his music loud. Its better music now but I still dont want to hear the bass, in my room 30m away, at 11:45pm…or at 5am for that matter. I could ‘cope’ (and I use that word loosely) with the disturbed sleep if I could nap in the day. However, the neighbour likes to play his music when I feel I can nap – about 2pm.
So, with the cats, the car, the neighbour and the lack of sleep, I have been unbelievably stressed. Last night I turned the light off about 10:30, and was awake stressing until midnight. Awake again THINKING just after 5. Nodded off (? drowsed?) until Himself disturbed me just before 7am. Last night while thinking I thought I felt my top lip being ‘tight’ – usually a good indicator of an impending cold sore. So I got up and had a couple of lysine tablets. This morning I am feeling less anxious. Since I’ve read that lysine deficiency contributes to anxiety, I have to wonder if this has helped ‘ease my mind.’ All the issues I’ve been stressing about are still there, including the neighbour playing his music right now (that I can hear over mine), but that God-awful buzzing at the back of my head has dissipated.
I *did* play relaxing music last night too, but since I was awake til midnight, I dont think that was as relaxing as I would have liked.
I believe that the lysine played a more significant part. Of course, since cold sores also arise during stressful times, I’m not surprised. But I think I’ll try and keep taking it every day. Its cheaper than scotch, or going to the dr for anti anxiety medication.
With all the bouncing around of craft things this past week I wonder if a lot of my ‘attention span’ for things is solely due to how much I need to distract myself. For far this week I’ve fiddled with the Simply Squared things (three types – acrylic, tapestry yarn, long stitch yarn), a corner to corner in sock yarn, corner to corner in the Mt Cripps colors I dont have enough of, a dishcloth, socks. Do I start things to distract myself then when that distraction isn’t needed let it all to the wayside until I feel like finishing it? And is the delay in finishing things (years) due to the fact that working on it brings back memories/feelings associated with the original stress that caused me to start it in the first place? Do I need that distance to ‘forget’? I’d believe it.
Since it is a glorious day I think I’ll get off the computer and get on with vacuuming. The guinea pigs sawdust, that I put in the chook house on the back step, is being tracked through the house. Unfortunately, there is only me here, so its my feet bringing it in. I don’t think it sticks to cat feet, but it certainly sticks to socks..and I’m the only sock wearer.